Real Healing 2

Posted on Sun 09 August 2015 in Blog

December 11, 2020: The original article below was written and published on August 9, 2015. Since them I have learned much more about the struggle and my eyes have been opened to things I did not understand well before. Edits to this article indicated by lines drawn through old text and added text is in blue.

One thing that I found has happened to me, and I understand happens to anyone who studies their Bible, is that it acts as a mirror. By that, I mean that you see in the Bible the self you should be, and it opens your eyes to just how short we come to God's ideal for us. It has occurred to me that when I act in my own strength, I am incapable of knowing any pure motive for anything in life. It is only when God works in me that Good happens.

I have struggled for a long time now with things in my life that I'd like to change, but haven't yet been delivered from them. We all have bad habits or vices in this old, fallen, nature of ours that we want to be delivered from - sometimes the delivery from them is immediate and sometimes not. I don't pretend to know the reason for these things and I trust God, who does know them - but it doesn't stop me from wanting to change them.

I was thinking on this tonight, when the thought came into my mind that when I obsess over these things, I am being ungrateful and disrespectful to God. Here is why: when I worry over those things, I forget that Jesus Died and Rose Again from the Dead for my sins - All of Them. And since, he heals me every day, I should be Thanking Him and Praising Him, not doubting him - and doubt is what my constant desire to be changed on my own timeline, not his, amounts to.

When I observe myself I also see that there is something behind the doubt: Ego. Ego wants this my own way, not God's way. Ego wants to narrow my focus to what I want, not what God wants.

So what is the answer to all this? When you fight these things, you are living in a dream of how you should be and have forgotten why you need God's love every moment of every day. Observe how you are, not in condemnation, but seeking to understand what you are feeling and thinking. When you do that, you will see that God supplies everything we need (and everything the universe needs), and you can rest in his will in peace. You will know that so much of life is a mystery and you will know that you do not know. That is the best way I can put it, for reality is beyond words.

So Lord, this is me, checking in with you tonight. Thank You so Much for Sending Jesus, to cleanse the sin of the whole world, so that anyone who believes on him may be saved. Thank you for healing and keeping me this day. Thank You for hearing me when I confess my sins. And Thank You for your Boundless Mercy and Grace, which keeps me every moment. I ask this in the name of my Dear Savior Jesus, AMEN.

This I recall to my mind, therefore have I hope. It is of the Lord's mercies that we are not consumed, because his compassions fail not. They are new every morning; great is thy faithfulness. The Lord is my portion, saith my soul; therefore I will hope in him. (Lamentations 3:21-24, KJV)

Till Next Time,

Duane